Holy shit. Every day I check my tumblr I lose followers. I’ve lost 16!
They only liked me when I was pregnant. Either they were creeps and just curious to see what jayce was going to look like or I’m just a big biggity bitch now.
I’m probably just a big biggity bitch now.
Holla to my main girlz though :*
I don’t hate people. I just don’t like most people. Seriously. It is the reason why I’m so lonely. I want friends, but I don’t like people.
Lmfao.
I seriously love this kid. Even though today was my first day at the urgent care an he woke up at 4am and I worked 8am -4pm. EVEN THOUGH, since last Thursday he slept 9pm-8am solid since we got him a dimmer light so he could soothe himself better. I was even going to make a post about how proud I was, but didn’t do it….didn’t want to jinx myself.
HAAAAAA. Muah! Love you, Jaycer!
Tonight is one of those nights where I wish I could just disappear completely. I’m not even sad, mad or anything negative nor have any reason to be.
I just feel like nothing.
I like my life at the moment. I just graduated college, and I start my externship at an Urgent Care in Newport Beach on Thursday. Jayce is a good kid, and my whole weight loss journey is paying off.
As for things with Max…they’re really good! We’re in love and all that crap. He still annoys the hell out of me some days, mostly when I’m in a bad mood, but other than that he’s great. We’ve been together for over 2 years and he’s still a sweetheart.
What’s a sexy miss like you doing ?
Oh, you know. Warming up food and a bottle for my baby.
Dude, I never want to have another baby ever again. I thought I did.
I blog about it a lot but I feel like I’m the only one (but I know I’m not). Jayce is absolutely everything to me and I’m good at being a mom, but I don’t feel like it’s what I was born to do (obviously, biologically that’s what I was made to do but you know what I mean).
I have things I want to accomplish, places I want to go, things I want to own.
I’m a very selfless person with very selfish desires. I mean, I guess they’re not so selfish because all my plans, ideas and dreams involve Max and Jayce.
I don’t want to have to wake up every hour of the night ever again or even once a night during an 8 hour stretch. I don’t think Jayce will be better off with a brother or sister. He has me and Max and we’re cool as shit and his friends will be welcomed over whenever!
I want to work to acquire everything Jayce needs and wants and the things I want too. I just want to bust my balls and focus on my career to better my whole family, so just us 3 can have fun forever.
Does this make me a bad person?
Disgustingly skinny (god I hope y’all sense the sarcasm) in the morning, bloated by 3.
What. The. Fuck.
On a happier note. I’ve lost 3 pants sizes and it looks like I shit my pants because they’re too big. Which also makes me feel like I have an eating disorder. Time to go buy a pair of tight fitting pants so I can feel fat again and lose more weight, because I honestly feel like I look hot and shit - which I don’t…..yet. Lol!
Haha! I just saw your reply to that anon I thought was you. I was looking at Joseph and I realized….when you mix Max and Myself, I guess we could make a little him. I guess we did make a little him. Thank god he plays a sweetheart and he’s smart in his roles.
Love you, love you, love you! I didn’t reply sooner because I can’t respond privately but I’m hardly on my laptop.
SO, I LOVE YOU.
There’s nothing really you can do. People will be friends with people you don’t like all the time. When I was younger I would always try to convince people why they shouldn’t hang out with people I didn’t like (because they were my friends, and they should be on my side I thought) but people are going to hang out with whoever they want. I realized this after high school.
So, until she leaves on her own or people just stop inviting her over - she going to be around. That’s the way life is.
Haha! Is this Devin? Thank you! I hope most people find that guy cute - cause my kids is definitely cute.
